I’ve never done this before and I can’t do it for all of the adoptable animals out there but for some reason I am compelled to write you this letter.
The first time I saw your picture I immediately felt that I wanted you and needed you. You were lost at the time and I have no idea why it hit me so hard. I looked for you.. I did. I watched the groups to see if there were any sightings and to see what progress was going on and then I’d go when I knew nobody else was out there looking.
I can’t walk a lot but I can drive. So I’m sorry if I freaked people out driving around so slow but I didn’t care. I have no idea why I was so driven to find you. When the announcement came that you were found, I cried uncontrollably. I knew that you were safe once again.
I’m following your story in the rescue groups. I’m continuously looking you up and staring at your pictures. I want you …. but I can’t have you.
I’m sorry. I wish I could take you into my arms and tell you that you’re finally home. I wish that I could give you all of the love that I feel for you but I have to hope that there is someone out there who hasn’t seen you yet and that’s why you don’t have a home.
I have a lot of fears and one of them is to go out of my home alone. I had to… I just had to and I finally did. I came to see you finally to show you that you do have someone watching you.
All I could do is put my fingers through the holes and cry. Thank you for coming to comfort me you were my savior at that moment. You are everything I thought you’d be and I can’t have you.
I’ve had FIV kitties in my home before. I know what you have to offer. I know that you are no different than any other indoor kitty.
As you went back to your corner to lay down my heart broke the rest of the way. I wanted to scoop you up and say… no more, tonight you will sleep in your forever home. And I couldn’t do that, for that I am sorry.
Some day Richard… I promise you, some day… I will be able to for another.